Saturday, March 27, 2010

Epic Fail: Rough Patch





I've got no words. I lost them. Misplaced them under a pile of bad decisions and dead ends and now can't find them again. Makes blog writing pretty impossible. The stick figures aren't effective. 


I did scrawl this on the back of an office memo on a bench tonight, so at least some words were left behind when the others ran for cover. But I don't like the looks of them:


"at Astor Place"


on a peeling bench at Astor Place she lost the week's last battle, lost the half hour war of blinking eyes and twitching lids and index fingers sniping tears, miscalculated where to jam a fingertip or what distraction to mobilize, chose the wrong piece of Preamble to the Constitution to recite over and over and underestimated the burden of an otherwise harmless marvin gaye playlist. or maybe it was more abstract, maybe she picked at the wrong shard of paint
trying to liberate itself from the armrest, or should have fanned both eyes with an old show program better suited for that fight, or focused more on mudra poses executed with energized hands. maybe it was just weak character. but on a bench at Astor Place she lost the final showdown, lost when they finally felled the lower lids until she was that girl crying. everybody saw.



Ominous words, missing wit, lost smile. Epic fail.

11 comments:

Hannah Miet said...

Fuck.

I was with you through every inch of this narration.

I would say "I'm sorry,"

but "fuck" is more accurate.

Love,

The girl who can't cry, but was once that girl.

Summer Fades said...

Those words are enough.

*hugs*

Wynn said...

Sounds rough. Hope you're okay.

Kandace said...

I have no idea what to say. I guess I still wanted to show you I'm here and that I care. I hope you're ok & things get better.

Abi Grace said...

I find in these situations it helps to let other people's words fill the void. You can have some of mine if you like.

http://www.last.fm/music/Abi+Grace/_/Orpheus+Bows

Hipstercrite said...

no! don't stop writing!

Polly Syllabick said...

thanks abi! you're amazing

Brian said...

Dig the meter. I've always liked your writing.

coors cowgirl 21 said...

like summer fades said those words are enough.... and they were wonderful..

mine are starting to run for cover too

Summer Fades said...

Hey hey, hope you're still working your way towards the sunshine. Miss your wit.

Amy Lewis said...

Come back Polly! I miss your take on the world and experiencing (at least linguistically) how the world takes you.